دُعَاؤُهُ فِي الِاسْتِقَالَةِ مِِن ذُنوبِهِ و طَلَبِ العَفوIn
Asking Release from sins and Seeking Pardon
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O God, O He through whose Mercy sinners seek aid!
أللَّهُمَّ يَا مَنْ بِرَحْمَتِهِ يَسْتَغِيثُ
الْمُذْنِبُونَ،
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O He to the remembrance of whose beneficence the
distressed flee!
وَيَا مَنْ إلَى ذِكْرِ إحْسَانِهِ يَفْزَعُ
الْمُضْطَرُّونَ،
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O He in fear of whom the offenders weep!
وَيَا مَنْ لِخِيفَتِهِ يَنْتَحِبُ الْخَاطِئُونَ،
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O Comfort of every lonely stranger!
يَا اُنْسَ كُلِّ مُسْتَوْحِشٍ غَرِيبٍِ،
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O Relief of all who are downcast and distressed!
وَيَا فَرَجَ كُلِّ مَكْرُوبٍ كَئِيبٍ،
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O Aid of everyone abandoned and alone!
وَيَا غَوْثَ كُلِّ مَخْذُوَلٍ فَرِيدٍ،
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O Support of every needy outcast!
وَيَا عَضُدَ كُلِّ مُحْتَاجٍ طَرِيدٍ .
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Thou art He who "embracest everything in mercy and
knowledge"! (40:7)
أَنْتَ الَّذِي وَسِعْتَ كُلَّ شَيْء رَحْمَةً
وَعِلْماً،
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Thou art He who hast appointed for each creature a
share of Thy favours!
وَأَنْتَ الَّذِي جَعَلْتَ لِكُلِّ مَخْلُوق فِي
نِعَمِكَ سَهْماً،
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Thou art He whose pardon is higher than His
punishment!
وَأَنْتَ الَّذِيْ عَفْوُهُ أَعْلَى مِنْ عِقَابِهِ،
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Thou art He whose mercy runs before His wrath!
وَأَنْتَ الَّذِي تَسْعَى رَحْمَتُهُ أَمَامَ
غَضَبِهِ،
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Thou art He whose bestowal is greater than His
withholding!
وَأَنْتَ الَّذِي عَطَآؤُهُ أكْثَرُ مِنْ مَنْعِهِ،
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Thou art He by whose mercy all creatures are
embraced!
وَأَنْتَ الَّذِيْ اتَّسَعَ الْخَلاَئِقُ كُلُّهُمْ
فِي رَحمَتِهِ،
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Thou art He who desires no repayment by him upon
whom He bestows!
وَأَنْتَ الَّذِي لا يَرْغَبُ فِي جَزَاءِ مَنْ
أَعْطَاهُ،
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Thou art He who does not overdo the punishment of
him who disobeys Thee!
وَأَنْتَ الَّذِي لا يُفْرِطُ فِي عِقَابِ مَنْ
عَصَاهُ.
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And I, my God, am Thy servant whom Thou commanded to
supplicate and who said:
وَأَنَا يَا إلهِي عَبْدُكَ الَّذِي أَمَرْتَهُ
بِالدُّعاءِ فَقَالَ:
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I am at Thy service and disposal! Here am I, my
Lord, thrown down before Thee.
لَبَّيْكَ وَسَعْدَيْكَ، هَا أَنَا ذَا يَا رَبِّ
مَطْرُوحٌ بَيْنَ يَدَيْكَ،
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I am he whose back offenses have weighed down!
أَنَا الَّذِي أَوْقَرَتِ الْخَطَايَا ظَهْرَهُ،
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I am he whose lifetime sins have consumed!
وَأَنا الَّذِي أَفْنَتِ الذُّنُوبُ عُمْرَهُ،
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I am he who was disobedient in his ignorance, while
Thou didst not deserve that from him!
وَأَنَا الَّذِي بِجَهْلِهِ عَصاكَ وَلَمْ تَكُنْ
أَهْلاً مِنْهُ لِذَاكَ.
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Wilt Thou, my God, be merciful toward him who
supplicates Thee, that I should bring my
supplication before Thee?
هَلْ أَنْتَ يَا إلهِي رَاحِمٌ مَنْ دَعَاكَ
فَأُبْلِغَ فِي الدُّعَاءِ
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Wilt Thou forgive him who weeps to Thee that I
should hurry to weep?
أَمْ أَنْتَ غَافِرٌ لِمَنْ بَكَاكَ فَأُسْرِعَ فِي
الْبُكَاءِ
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Wilt Thou show forbearance toward him who puts his
face in the dust before Thee in lowliness?
أَمْ أَنْتَ مُتَجَاوِزٌ عَمَّنْ عَفَّرَ لَكَ
وَجْهَهُ تَذَلُّلاً
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Wilt Thou free from need him who complains to Thee
of his indigent need with confidence?
أَم أَنْتَ مُغْن مَنْ شَكَا إلَيْكَ فَقْرَهُ
تَوَكُّلاً؟
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My God, disappoint not him who finds no bestower
other than Thee,
إلهِي لاَ تُخيِّبْ مَنْ لا يَجدُ مُعْطِياً غَيْرَكَ،
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and abandon not him who cannot be freed from his
need for Thee through less than Thee!
وَلاَ تَخْذُلْ مَنْ لا يَسْتَغْنِي عَنْكَ بِأَحَدٍ
دُونَكَ.
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My God, so bless Muhammad and his Household,
إلهِي فَصَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّد وَآلِهِ
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turn not away from me when I have turned my face
toward Thee,
وَلاَ تُعْرِضْ عَنِّي وَقَدْ أَقْبَلْتُ عَلَيْكَ ،
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deprive me not when 1 have besought Thee,
وَلا تَحْرِمْنِي وَقَـدْ رَغِبْتُ إلَيْكَ،
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and slap not my brow with rejection when I have
stood before Thee!
وَلا تَجْبَهْنِي بِالرَّدِّ وَقَدْ انْتَصَبْتُ
بَيْنَ يَدَيْكَ.
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Thou art He who has described Himself by mercy,
أَنْتَ الَّذِي وَصَفْتَ نَفْسَكَ بِالرَّحْمَةِ،
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so bless Muhammad and his Household and have mercy
upon me!
فَصَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّد وَآلِهِ وَارْحَمْنِي،
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Thou art He who has named Himself by pardon so
pardon me!
وَأَنْتَ الَّذِي سَمَّيْتَ نَفْسَكَ بِالعَفْوِ،
فَاعْفُ عَنِّي.
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Thou hast seen, my God, the flow of my tears in fear
of Thee,
قَـدْ تَرَى يَـا إلهِي فَيْضَ دَمْعِي مِنْ
خِيفَتِكَ،
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the throbbing of my heart in dread of Thee,
وَوَجِيبَ قَلْبِي مِنْ خَشْيَتِكَ،
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and the infirmity of my limbs in awe of Thee.
وَانْتِفَاضَ جَوَارِحِي مِنْ هَيْبَتِكَ،
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All this from my shame before Thee because of my
evil works!
كُلُّ ذَلِكَ حَيآءً مِنِّي لِسُوءِ عَمَلِي،
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So my voice has become silent, no longer crying to
Thee,
وَلِذَاكَ خَمَدَ صَوْتِي عَنِ الْجَارِ إلَيْكَ،
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and my tongue has gone dumb, no longer whispering in
prayer.
وَكَلَّ لِسَانِي عَنْ مُنَاجَاتِكَ
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My God, so to Thee belongs praise! How many of my
flaws Thou hast covered over without exposing me!
يَا إلهِي فَلَكَ الْحَمْدُ، فَكَم مِنْ عَائِبَةٍ
سَتَرْتَهَا عَلَيَّ فَلَم تَفْضَحْنِي،
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How many of my sins Thou hast cloaked without making
me notorious!
وَكَمْ مِنْ ذنْبِ غَطَّيْتَهُ عَلَيَّ فَلَمْ
تَشْهَرْنِي،
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How many faults I have committed, yet Thou didst not
tear away from me their covering,
وَكَمْ مِنْ شَائِبَة أَلْمَمْتُ بِهَا فَلَمْ
تَهْتِكْ عَنِّي سِتْرَهَا،
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collar me with their detested disgrace,
وَلَمْ تُقَلِّدْنِي مَكْرُوهَ شَنَارِهَا،
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or make their dishonour plain to those of my
neighbours who search for my defects
وَلَمْ تُبْدِ سَوْأَتِهَا لِمَنْ يَلْتَمِسُ
مَعَايِبِي مِنْ جِيْرَتِي،
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and to those who envy Thy favour toward me!
وَحَسَدَةِ نِعْمَتِكَ عِنْدِي،
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But that did not prevent me from passing on to the
evil that Thou knowest from me!
ثُمَّ لَمْ يَنْهَنِي ذَلِكَ عَنْ أَنْ جَرَيْتُ إلَى
سُوءِ مَا عَهِدْتَ مِنّي
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So who is more ignorant than I, my God, of his own
right conduct?
فَمَنْ أَجْهَلُ مِنِّي يَا إلهِيْ بِرُشْدِهِ
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Who is more heedless than I of his own good fortune?
وَمَنْ أَغْفَلُ مِنِّي عَنْ حَظِّهِ
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Who is further than I from seeking to set himself
right?
وَمَنْ أَبْعَدُ مِنِّي مِنِ اسْتِصْلاَحِ نَفْسِهِ
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For I spend the provision Thou deliverest to me
حِيْنَ اُنْفِقُ مَا أَجْرَيْتَ عَلَيَّ مِنْ رِزْقِكَ
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in the disobedience Thou hast prohibited to me!
فِيمَا نَهَيْتَنِي عَنْهُ مِنْ مَعْصِيَتِكَ
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Who sinks more deeply into falsehood and is more
intensely audacious in evil than I?
وَمَنْ أَبْعَدُ غَوْراً فِي الْبَاطِلِ وَأَشَدُّ
إقْدَاماً عَلَى السُّوءِ مِنّي
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For I hesitate between Thy call and the call of
Satan
حِينَ أَقِفُ بَيْنَ دَعْوَتِكَ وَدَعْوَةِ
الشَّيْطَانِ،
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and then follow his call without being blind in my
knowledge of him
فَـأتَّبعُ دَعْوَتَهُ عَلَى غَيْرِ عَمىً مِنّي فِيْ
مَعْرِفَة بِهِ،
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or forgetful in my memory of him, while I am certain
وَلا نِسْيَان مِنْ حِفْظِي لَهُ وَأَنَا حِينَئِذ
مُوقِنٌ
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that Thy call takes to the Garden and his call takes
to the Fire!
بِأَنَّ مُنْتَهَى دَعْوَتِكَ إلَى الْجَنَّةِ
وَمُنْتَهَى دَعْوَتِهِ إلَى النَّارِ
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Glory be to Thee! How marvellous the witness I bear
سُبْحَانَكَ مَا أَعْجَبَ مَا أَشْهَدُ بِهِ
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against my own soul and the enumeration of my own
hidden affairs!
عَلَى نَفْسِي وَاُعَدِّدُهُ مِنْ مَكْتُوْمِ أَمْرِي،
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And more marvellous than that is Thy lack of haste
with me,
وَأَعْجَبُ مِنْ ذلِكَ أَنَاتُكَ عَنِّي
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Thy slowness in attending to me! That is not because
I possess
وَإبْطآؤُكَ عَنْ مُعَاجَلَتِي وَلَيْسَ ذلِكَ
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honour with Thee, but because Thou waitest patiently
for me
مِنْ كَرَمِي عَلَيْكَ بَلْ تَأَنِّياً مِنْكَ لِي،
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and art bountiful toward me
وَتَفَضُّلاً مِنْكَ عَلَيَّ،
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that I may refrain from disobedience displeasing to
Thee
لانْ أَرْتَـدِعَ عَنْ مَعْصِيَتِكَ الْمُسْخِطَةِ
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and abstain from evil deeds that disgrace me,
وَاُقْلِعَ عَنْ سَيِّئَـاتِي الْمُخْلِقَةِ .
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and because Thou lovest to pardon me more than to
punish!
وَلاَِنَّ عَفْوَكَ عَنّي أَحَبُّ إلَيْكَ مِنْ
عُقُوبَتِي،
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But I, my God, am more numerous in sins,
بَلْ أَنَا يَا إلهِي أكْثَرُ ذُنُوباً
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uglier in footsteps, more repulsive in acts,
وَأَقْبَحُ آثاراً وَأَشْنَعُ أَفْعَالاً
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more reckless in rushing into falsehood,
وَأَشَدُّ فِي الْباطِلِ تَهَوُّراً
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weaker in awakening to Thy obedience,
وَأَضْعَفُ عِنْدَ طَاعَتِكَ تَيَقُّظاً،
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and less attentive and heedful toward Thy threats,
وَأَقَلُّ لِوَعِيْدِكَ انْتِبَاهاً وَارْتِقَاباً
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than that I could number for Thee my faults
مِنْ أَنْ أُحْصِيَ لَكَ عُيُوبِي،
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or have the power to recount my sins.
أَوْ أَقْدِرَ عَلَى ذِكْرِ ذُنُوبِي
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I only scold my own soul, craving Thy gentleness,
وَإنَّمَا أُوبِّخُ بِهَذا نَفْسِي طَمَعَـاً فِي
رَأْفَتِكَ
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through which the affairs of sinners are set right,
الَّتِي بِهَـا صَلاَحُ أَمْرِ الْمُذْنِبِينَ،
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and hoping for Thy mercy, through which the necks of
the offenders are freed.
وَرَجَاءً لِرَحْمَتِكَ الَّتِي بِهَا فَكَاكُ رِقَابِ
الْخَاطِئِينَ.
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O God, this is my neck, enslaved by sins,
اللَّهُمَّ وَهَذِهِ رَقَبَتِي قَدْ أَرَقَّتْهَا
الذُّنُوبُ،
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so bless Muhammad and his Household and release it
through Thy pardon!
فَصَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّد وَآلِهِ وَأَعْتِقْهَا
بِعَفْوِكَ،
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This is my back, weighed down by offenses,
وَهَذَا ظَهْرِي قَدْ أَثْقَلَتْهُ الْخَطَايَـا،
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so bless Muhammad and his Household and lighten it
through Thy kindness!
فَصَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّد وَآلِهِ وَخَفِّفْ عَنْهُ
بِمَنِّكَ.
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My God, were I to weep to Thee until my eyelids drop
off,
يَا إلهِي لَوْ بَكَيْتُ إلَيْكَ حَتَّى تَسْقُطَ
أَشْفَارُ عَيْنَيَّ ،
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wail until my voice wears out,
وَانْتَحَبْتُ حَتَّى يَنْقَطِعَ صَوْتِي،
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stand before Thee until my feet swell up,
وَقُمْتُ لَكَ حَتَّى تَتَنَشَّرَ قَدَمَايَ،
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bow to Thee until my backbone is thrown out of
joint,
وَرَكَعْتُ لَكَ حَتَّى يَنْخَلِعَ صُلْبِي،
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prostrate to Thee until my eyeballs fall out,
وَسَجَدْتُ لَكَ حَتَّى تَتَفَقَّأَ حَدَقَتَايَ،
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eat the dirt of the earth for my whole life,
وَأكَلْتُ تُرَابَ الأرْضِ طُولَ عُمْرِي،
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drink the water of ashes till the end of my days,
وَشَرِبْتُ مَاءَ الرَّمَادِ آخِرَ دَهْرِي
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mention Thee through all of that until my tongue
fails,
وَذَكَرْتُكَ فِي خِلاَلِ ذَلِكَ حَتَّى يَكِلَّ
لِسَانِي
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and not lift my glance to the sky's horizons in
shame before Thee,
ثُمَّ لَمْ أَرْفَعْ طَرْفِي إلَى آفَاقِ السَّمَاءِ
اسْتِحْيَاءً مِنْكَ
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yet would I not merit through all of that the
erasing of a single one of my evil deeds!
مَا اسْتَوْجَبْتُ بِذَلِكَ مَحْوَ سَيِّئَة وَاحِـدَة
مِنْ سَيِّئـاتِي،
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Though Thou forgivest me when I merit Thy
forgiveness
وَإنْ كُنْتَ تَغْفِـرُ لِي حِيْنَ أَسْتَوْجِبُ
مَغْفِرَتَكَ
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and pardonest me when I deserve Thy pardon,
وَتَعْفُو عَنِّي حِينَ أَسْتَحِقُّ عَفْوَكَ
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yet I have no title to that through what I deserve,
فَإنَّ ذَلِكَ غَيْرُ وَاجِب لِيْ بِاسْتِحْقَاق،
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nor am I worthy of it through merit,
وَلا أَنَا أَهْلٌ لَهُ بِـاسْتِيجَاب
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since my repayment from Thee from the first that I
disobeyed Thee is the Fire!
إذْ كَـانَ جَزَائِي مِنْكَ فِي أَوَّلِ مَا
عَصَيْتُكَ النَّارَ;
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So if Thou punishest me, Thou dost me no wrong.
فَإنْ تُعَذِّبْنِي، فَأَنْتَ غَيْرُ ظَالِم لِيْ.
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My God, since Thou hast shielded me with Thy
covering and not exposed me,
إلهِي فَـإذْ قَـدْ تَغَمَّـدْتَنِي بِسِتْـرِكَ
فَلَمْ تَفْضَحْنِي
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waited patiently for me through Thy generosity, and
not hurried me to punishment,
وَتَـأَنَّيْتَنِي بِكَـرَمِـكَ فَلَمْ تُعَـاجِلْنِي،
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and shown me clemency through Thy bounty, and not
changed Thy favour upon me
َو حَلُمْتَ عَنِّي بِتَفَضُّلِكَ فَلَمْ تُغَيِّـرْ
نِعْمَتَـكَ عَلَيَّ،
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or muddied Thy kindly acts toward me,
وَلَمْ تُكَـدِّرْ مَعْرُوفَكَ عِنْدِي
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have mercy on my drawn out pleading, my intense
misery, and my evil situation!
فَارْحَمْ طُولَ تَضَرُّعِيْ وَشِـدَّةَ مَسْكَنَتِي
وَسُوءَ مَوْقِفِيْ.
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O God, bless Muhammad and his Household,
اللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّد وَآلِهِ
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protect me from acts of disobedience, employ me in
obedience,
وَقِنِي مِنَ الْمَعَاصِي وَاسْتَعْمِلْنِي
بِالطَّاعَةِ،
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provide me with excellent turning back [to Thee],
purify me through repentance,
وَارْزُقْنِي حُسْنَ الإِنابَةِ وَطَهِّرْنِي
بِالتَّـوْبَةِ،
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strengthen me through preservation from sin, set me
right through well being,
وَأَيِّـدْنِي بِالْعِصْمَةِ وَاسْتَصْلِحْنِي
بِالْعَافِيَةِ
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let me taste the sweetness of forgiveness,
وَأَذِقْنِي حَلاَوَةَ الْمَغْفِـرَةِ،
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make me the freedman of Thy pardon and the slave
released by Thy mercy,
وَاجْعَلْنِي طَلِيقَ عَفْـوِكَ، وَعَتِيقَ رَحْمَتِكَ
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and write for me a security from Thy displeasure!
وَاكْتُبْ لِي أَمَاناً مِنْ سَخَطِكَ
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Give me the good news of that in the immediate, not
the deferred - a good news I recognize -
وَبَشِّرْنِي بِذلِكَ فِي الْعَاجِلِ دُونَ الآجِلِ
بُشْرى أَعْرِفُهَا
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and make known to me therein a sign which I may
clearly see!
وَعَرِّفْنِي فِيهِ عَلاَمَةً أَتَبَيَّنُهَا
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That will not constrain Thee in Thy plenty,
إنَّ ذلِكَ لاَ يَضيقُ عَلَيْكَ فِي وُسْعِكَ ،
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distress Thee in Thy power,
وَلا يَتَكَأَّدُكَ فِي قُدْرَتِكَ،
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ascend beyond Thy lack of haste,
وَلا يَتَصَعَّدُكَ فِي أناتِكَ ،
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or tire Thee in Thy great gifts, which are pointed
to by Thy signs.
وَلا يَؤودُك فِي جَزِيلِ هِباتِكَ الَّتِي دَلَّتْ
عَلَيْهَا آيَاتُكَ
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Verily Thou dost what Thou wilt, Thou decreest what
Thou desirest.
إنَّكَ تَفْعَلُ مَا تَشَاءُ وَتَحكُمُ مَا تُرِيدُ،
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"Thou art powerful over everything". (3:26)
إنَّكَ عَلَى كُلِّ شَيْء قَدِيرٌ.
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O God,
O He through whose Mercy sinners seek aid!
O He to the remembrance of whose beneficence the distressed flee!
O He in fear of whom the offenders weep!
O Comfort of every lonely stranger!
O Relief of all who are downcast and distressed!
O Aid of everyone abandoned and alone!
O Support of every needy outcast!
Thou art He
who embracest everything in mercy and knowledge!94
Thou art He
who hast appointed for each creature a share of Thy favours!
Thou art He
whose pardon is higher than His punishment!
Thou art He
whose mercy runs before His wrath!
Thou art He
whose bestowal is greater than His withholding!
Thou art He
by whose mercy all creatures are embraced!
Thou art He
who desires no repayment by him upon whom He bestows!
Thou art He
who does not overdo the punishment of him who disobeys Thee!
And I, my God, am Thy servant
whom Thou commanded to supplicate
and who said:
I am at Thy service and disposal!
Here am I, my Lord,
thrown down before Thee.
I am he
whose back offenses have weighed down!
I am he
whose lifetime sins have consumed!
I am he
who was disobedient in his ignorance,
while Thou didst not deserve that from him!
Wilt Thou, my God,
be merciful toward him who supplicates Thee,
that I should bring my supplication before Thee?
Wilt Thou forgive him who weeps to Thee
that I should hurry to weep?
Wilt Thou show forbearance toward
him who puts his face in the dust before Thee in lowliness?
Wilt Thou free from need
him who complains to Thee of his indigent need with confidence?
My God,
disappoint not him who finds no bestower
other than Thee,
and abandon not him who cannot be freed from his need for Thee through less than Thee!
My God,
so bless Muhammad and his Household,
turn not away from me
when I have turned my face toward Thee,
deprive me not
when 1 have besought Thee,
and slap not my brow with rejection
when I have stood before Thee!
Thou art He who has described Himself by mercy,
so bless Muhammad and his Household
and have mercy upon me!
Thou art He who has named Himself by pardon,
so pardon me!
Thou hast seen, my God,
the flow of my tears
in fear of Thee,
the throbbing of my heart
in dread of Thee,
and the infirmity of my limbs
in awe of Thee.
All this from my shame before Thee
because of my evil works!
So my voice has become silent,
no longer crying to Thee,
and my tongue has gone dumb,
no longer whispering in prayer.
My God,
so to Thee belongs praise!
How many of my haws Thou hast covered over
without exposing me!
How many of my sins Thou hast cloaked
without making me notorious!
How many faults I have committed, yet Thou didst not
tear away from me their covering,
collar me with their detested disgrace,
or make their dishonour plain
to those of my neighbours who search for my defects
and to those who envy Thy favour toward me!
But that did not prevent me from passing on
to the evil that Thou knowest from me!
So who is more ignorant than I, my God,
of his own right conduct?
Who is more heedless than I
of his own good fortune?
Who is further than I
from seeking to set himself right?
For I spend the provision Thou deliverest to me
in the disobedience Thou hast prohibited to me!
Who sinks more deeply into falsehood
and is more intensely audacious in evil than I?
For I hesitate between Thy call and the call of Satan
and then follow his call
without being blind in my knowledge of him
or forgetful in my memory of him,
while I am certain that Thy call takes to the Garden
and his call takes to the Fire!
Glory be to Thee!
How marvellous the witness I bear against my own soul
and the enumeration of my own hidden affairs!
And more marvellous than that is Thy lack of haste with me,
Thy slowness in attending to me!
That is not because I possess honour with Thee,
but because Thou waitest patiently for me
and art bountiful toward me
that I may refrain from disobedience displeasing to Thee
and abstain from evil deeds that disgrace me,
and because Thou lovest to pardon me more than to punish!
But I, my God, am
more numerous in sins,
uglier in footsteps,
more repulsive in acts,
more reckless in rushing into falsehood,
weaker in awakening to Thy obedience,
and less attentive and heedful toward Thy threats,
than that I could number for Thee my faults
or have the power to recount my sins.
I only scold my own soul,
craving Thy gentleness,
through which the affairs of sinners are set right,
and hoping for Thy mercy,
through which the necks of the offenders are freed.
O God,
this is my neck,
enslaved by sins,
bless Muhammad and his Household
and release it through Thy pardon!
This is my back,
weighed down by offenses,
bless Muhammad and his Household
and lighten it through Thy kindness!
My God,
were I to weep to Thee until my eyelids drop off,
wail until my voice wears out,
stand before Thee until my feet swell up,
bow to Thee until my backbone is thrown out of joint,
prostrate to Thee until my eyeballs fall out,
eat the dirt of the earth for my whole life,
drink the water of ashes till the end of my days,
mention Thee through all of that until my tongue fails,
and not lift my glance to the sky's horizons in shame before Thee,
yet would I not merit through all of that
the erasing of a single one of my evil deeds!
Though Thou forgivest me when I merit Thy forgiveness
and pardonest me when I deserve Thy pardon,
yet I have no title to that through what I deserve,
nor am I worthy of it through merit,
since my repayment from Thee
from the first that I disobeyed Thee
is the Fire!
So if Thou punishest me,
Thou dost me no wrong.
My God, since Thou hast
shielded me with Thy covering
and not exposed me,
waited patiently for me through Thy generosity,
and not hurried me to punishment,
and shown me clemency through Thy bounty,
and not changed Thy favour upon me
or muddied Thy kindly acts toward me,
have mercy on my drawn out pleading,
my intense misery,
and my evil situation!
O God,
bless Muhammad and his Household,
protect me from acts of disobedience,
employ me in obedience,
provide me with excellent turning back [to Thee],
purify me through repentance,
strengthen me through preservation from sin,
set me right through well being,
let me taste the sweetness of forgiveness,
make me the freedman of Thy pardon
and the slave released by Thy mercy,
and write for me a security
from Thy displeasure!
Give me the good news of that
in the immediate, not the deferred
- a good news I recognize -
and make known to me therein a sign
which I may clearly see!
That will not constrain Thee in Thy plenty,
distress Thee in Thy power,
ascend beyond Thy lack of haste,
or tire Thee in Thy great gifts,
which are pointed to by Thy signs.
Verily Thou dost what Thou wilt,
Thou decreest what Thou desirest.
Thou art powerful over everything. |
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